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PEACE ALL.

hhhh-yyeeeeah!! I fucking love personal finance, such an easy class. This day is going so well, I'm so suprised because it's the first day back but what do I have to complain about.

Nikka Costa-I gotta know


I gotta know
If I give my heart to you
That everything you say is true
And everything you say you'll do you'll do

I gotta know
If I bare my soul right here
You'll never run or disappear
You'll hold me till the hours turn to years

And I gotta say
My heart has never been so sure
You've mended every piece that tore
And now my love's too strong to tear away

So I gotta know
If you feel the same my dear
Let's justify why we are here
Say the words that I long to hear

Cause I've been so strong for so long
I never needed anyone
But my strength is wearing out my heart
So I'm letting my guard down
Cause I feel like I've finally found somebody
But I gotta know

I gotta know
You'll still kiss away my tears
Even if they make no sense
Even if they put you on defense

I gotta know
Through the times when it gets rough
That our love will be enough
And we'll never let it go






Even though it was mad cold outside last night, it still meant a lot to me, more than I showed.

You Are an Orange Martini

Everyone's favorite drunk, you're fun, flirty, and charming. Unfortunately, you often spark jealousy - and unintentionally start bar fights. You should never: Drink and dial. You'll just end up with multiple booty calls at your door! Your ideal party: Is huge and lively. You love to work a crowd. Your drinking soulmates: those with a Blueberry Martini personality Your drinking rivals: those with a Dirty Martini personality

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.





somehow this songs seems a little harsh, but it's the best that I can post.
Blind sided man...blind sided.

I'm starting mentoring with this chick named kate in a couple of weeks. I'm actually kind of nervous.

The thought of you and me and me and you
it's clear, it's blurry
your head, my mind, your mind, my head, as one
it's real, the foolish worry

I feel you and you feel me as I feel you
it's good, it's scary
the speed, the heat, it's deep, and steep
it's light but hard to carry

listend when I'm silent there's a
SOUND that only you can hear
listen when it's quiet I know
you can hear it, cover up your ears
COVER UP YOUR EARS

your hands, my mouth, your mouth, my hands
the weight of what we're thinking
no words, the air we breathe
it's not liquid, but we're drinking

listen when I'm silent there's a
SOUND that only you can hear
listen when it's quiet I know
you can hear it, cover up your ears
COVER UP YOUR EARS

listen..

K's Choice

Last night was unexplainably wonderful.

Why is it that what I want and what I need are two very different things. It only makes perfect sense that they should be the same right? It makes me sad to think that even if your willing to make things work they can never be. It's not possible for something to work if it is based on emotional situations. Oh well the world will go on and so will I eventually.


Hmmmm I don't feel good, actually I feel like shit. I have an Earth Space test in like 13 minutes and I actually have no idea what it's on...chances are I wouldn't understand what it was on even if I had studied.

G.I Jane=my new fav movie...wont even lie about it. I'm really excited for this weekend, woot woot.


Breathe it in and breathe it out
And pass it on, it's almost out
We're so creative, so much more
We're high above but on the floor

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side

The deeper you stick it in your vein
The deeper the thoughts, there's no more pain
I'm in heaven, I'm a god
I'm everywhere, I feel so hot

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)

It's over now, I'm cold, alone
I'm just a person on my own
Nothing means a thing to me
(Nothing means a thing to me)

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)

Free me, leave me
Watch me as I'm going down
Free me, see me
Look at me, I'm falling and I'm falling.

It is not a habit, it is cool I feel alive I feel...
It is not a habit, it is cool I feel alive

It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive
If you don't have it you're on the other side
I'm not an addict (maybe that's a lie)
I'm not an addict...

I think that today was the hardest day that I have ever made it through. Given I didn't even make it to a couple of classes, but I didn't go home hahah like I would have had an excuse for that one. I dunno, for some reason I feel like that was a massive step, damn. It's hurts, I would have never thought.





Here's a thought for every man
Who tries to understand what is in his hands
He walks along the open road of Love & Life
surviving if he can

Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
Chained to all the places that he never wished to stay
Bound with all the weight of all the words he tried to say
and as faced the sun he cast no shadow

As they took his soul they stole his pride

My horoscope as we speak:



Love: Temperance

Touchstone: Death

Career: The Pope

The emotional climate today is anything but cheerful, sara... The cards of Death and Temperance indicate a rupture or a loss that will cause you great pain. However, before you start trying to cling to someone who is wanting to get away, think carefully what you really want. The most likely outcome is that you will decide on a period of separation. In the professional context, you might undergo a big transformation or opt for a radical change in your work routine. Under the influence of the card of Death, today is a day of change and mutation, whether you want it or not. The day might bring a breakup with a business partner or the need to abandon a project that is no longer feasible. All this is probably not going to be that easy. It will require flexibility, but you know very well that you need to finish a chapter before you can start on a new one.




I have a huge latin test today, stage 9...it's gonna blow mostly because I don't even know the vocab. Yeah, great sara, way to be a good student.

I wish that things weren't so complicated, I wish things weren't so harsh, I wish that feelings weren't so strong, so passionate, so painful, so unforgettably...there.

Two months is too little.
They let him go.
They had no sudden healing.
To think that providence would
Take a child from his mother while she prays
Is appalling.

Who told us we'd be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We're asking why this happens
To us who have died to live?
It's unfair.


This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life
And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held






...yeah...

Winter ball. Hmmmmm not so sure about this whole thing. Not going to tamekas party...sad but I'll be dandy in a few. Couldn't get my nose pierced yesterday cuz they were all booked and now I have to wait until friday how ridiculous is that shit. Whatever.





...I can't even explain how happy I am right now. I don't even know where it's coming from...well thats a lie. I know exactly where it's coming from. God...



Don't go into something to test the waters, go into something to make waves.

Desire is half of life, indifference is half of death.

Valentines Day is tomorrow!!!
Oh yo woot woot I am so excited I love valentines day. Do you ever get sick of your routine, or at least wanna spice it up a bit? Yeah moi aussi. The passed couple of weeks have been transitioning weeks, thats what corinna and I like to call them. It's true everyone and everything is changing all at the SAME TIME. EVERYTHING!!!! Why does everything always happen at once, like what the fuck. Oh well...it's all good as long as you take it slow.


"You should always learn, with life comes wisdom and with wisdom comes the courage to live your life selflessly. The more you learn about yourself and the experiences surrounding your life the more opportunities you have to make your life better"

The human heart feels things the eyes cannot see, and knows what the mind cannot understand

Don't worry you will find the answer if you let it go, give yourself some time to falter. But don't forgo knowing that you're loved no matter what and everything will come around in time.





When She Love Me -Sarah McLachlan

When somebody loved me
everything was beautiful.
Every hour we spent together
lives within my heart.

And when she was sad
I was there to dry her tears.
And when she was happy so was I.
When she loved me.

Through the summer and the fall
we had each other, that was all.
Just she and I together,
like it was meant to be.

And when she was lonely
I was there to comfort her.
And I knew that she loved me.

So the years went by.
I stayed the same,
but she began to drift away
I was left alone.
Still I waited for the day
when she'd say "I will always love you."

Lonely and forgotten,
never thought she'd look my way.
And she smiled at me and held me
just like she used to do.
Like she loved me.
When she loved me.

When somebody loved me
everything was beautiful.
Every hour we spent together
lives within my heart.
When she loved me...




-I don't want that to happen.

Lying here with you
Listening to the rain
Smiling just to see the smile upon your face
These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I found all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
Looking in your eyes
Seeing all I need
Everything you are is everything to me
These are the moments
I know heaven must exist
These are the moments I know all I need is this
I have all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more
Chorus
I could not ask for more than this time together
I could not ask for more than this time with you
Every prayer has been answered
Every dream I had has come true
And right here in this moment is right where I'm meant to be
Here with you here with me

These are the moments I thank God that I'm alive
These are the moments I'll remember all my life
I've got all I've waited for
And I could not ask for more





I'm in love with you...

(( WHEN iT D0UBT ]]
[[ WHiP iT 0UT ))




Barenaked Ladies {Thanks That was Fun}

Thanks that was fun.
Don’t forget, no regrets (’cept maybe one)
Made a deal, not to feel (god, that’s dumb)

Everybody knows the deal fell through.
I was hoping I could just blame you.
When was it that I became so soft?



I always hated barenaked ladies sooo much...for no reason. Corinna just gave me this sick mix and there are a couple of their songs on there and their not that bad.
It's Tameka's birthday today, yay happy birthday!!! I am so done with being grounded...done...over. I was massivly sick last night, like I couldn't even walk it was so bad. So I think that everyone should bring me cheese cake and everything will be fine lol.



plunk /plungk/ vti. a hard blow

Strip away the layers and reveal your soul
Got to give yourself up and then you become whole
You're a slave to yourself and you don't even know
You want to live the fast life but your brain moves slow










wisdom is only found in truth

So I was forced to walk home today, yet it wasn't as bad as I expected it to be so it's all good. I mean I can't even remember the last time that I was outside nevermind taing everything in. I was suprised by how much I love the outdoors. I went on a little adventure. I pet a dog, horse AND A DONKEY!!!! hhhhhyeah. I got to thinking, and I've changed sooo much in the past year, not like looks or style or really all that much to other people, but on the inside. It sounds retarded but thats the only way that I can explain it. The whole experiance made me want to go home and climb a tree, or go back to youth group...oh god I need to stop.

God I fucking love watchings movies...well.